(For the past three years, I’ve used Reverb10 prompts for every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. I’m not the only one who has held on to a project from 2010. This year I signed up for prompts from Project Reverb.)
At the start. Where did you start 2013? Give us some background on this year.
I started this year really hopeful. I made a lot of plans that, in retrospect, did not pan out. I often don’t finish what I start. Also, life happens. But, a new year calls for new plans, and I was happy to oblige last January. I signed up to take a once-a-month, year-long class at the Sacred Well called Conscious Goddess. I had plans to meet up with a new private client. I had just started working with a new circle and had already volunteered to lead a ritual in February. I was just about to decide to apply to graduate school. We had a trip to Hawaii planed for my mid-winter break. There was a lot already decided about 2013. Or so I thought.
Some of those plans went really well. We went to Hawaii and saw whales in migration. I applied to graduate school and got accepted. I have lead not one but two rituals this year. On the other hand, well, I didn’t make it to every Conscious Goddess class. That client tried to negotiate to pay me less than the going rate and I didn’t budge – a decision I felt great about then and now that I’ve had to stop taking clients altogether.
I think I always head into a new year with this idea that if I plan to do enough new things, I’ll be new. But it doesn’t work like that, does it? You make decisions as you go. You outgrow some ideas and not others. The year is not a chunk of time the way the calendar wants you to think. It’s a stream, always changing. You can’t decide anything for a stream. You head in with an intention and see what happens.