(For the past five years, I’ve used Reverb10 prompts to give myself a question to answer every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. For 2015 I combined my love of tarot with the Reverb questions, matching my favorite questions to the 22 Major Arcana cards in the deck.)
THE SUN. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
I held it together. Seriously. It was a rough year. I am really surprised that I have not turned into a raving lunatic. They say we only have a finite amount of willpower. We get decision fatigue also. It’s really really hard to hold your tongue or to do the workout or keep your cool or remember to be kind.
I didn’t freak out when my car died. I was calm. And nice to everyone. Even the mechanics who clearly thought I was a dumb woman who couldn’t get her car to start.
I didn’t say snarky things at work that could have gotten me fired. Even when people were terrible. I was civil. I have yet to say “I told you so.” I really want to.
I made it to the top of several summits without cursing my husband. Because I love him and he didn’t really make me hike it, we chose to. Even when at one of the summits there was no potable water.
I complained several times to several people in ways that were respectful but firm and got results.
I screwed up several craft projects, but did not then set my sewing machine on fire.
I have yet to flip anyone off in traffic. I live in LA and drive the 405 at rush hour twice a day and so this is a major accomplishment.
I listened. Even when I knew the answer to the question already or had heard the story before. I am usually terrible at this.
I ate pretty well, even while out. I wasn’t rude when my orders were wrong and I was so hungry and tired and stressed that all I wanted to do was punch someone.
I took mental health days.
I said no, politely.
I put myself first without being bitchy about it.
I was not a bitch to anyone, that I can recall. That’s important to me. And this year, wow. This would have been the year to lose it and have a free pass. But I didn’t. (Pats herself on the back.)