(For the past six years, I’ve used Reverb10 prompts to give myself a question to answer every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. I’ve kept my favorite prompts, added a few from other sources, and created my own month-and- a-bit of questions.)
At The Start. Where did you start the year?
We moved over the New Year’s holiday last year. I do not recommend it.
I have a memory that is not visual, but a series of sensations. It’s cold. The room is cold, the sheets are cold, and the blow-up mattress beneath me is cold. Also, through that cold plastic mattress I can feel the sickening thud of the bass from the party below. All of that and worry that you have made a terrible mistake – that’s the sensation. It’s coldsick or worryhorror or some other word like icydreadregret.
We really wanted to spend the night in our new apartment. It was New Year’s Eve, after all, and we’d been packing green plastic boxes – we’d opted for an eco-friendly move – for days in order to be ready for the movers to arrive on the 2nd. So we took just what we needed to have what we thought would be a romantic night in our new place – the pizza stone and flour, a computer and speakers, and blow up mattress and blankets. It would be like camping, right?
We forgot salt. Have you ever tried to make dinner without salt? Ugh.
The heater didn’t work. It just blew out cold air. So we shivered and wrapped blankets around ourselves as we walked around the empty rooms.
It was New Year’s Eve. Our downstairs neighbor had a party that was so loud it shook our floors. We’d moved out of our old place in part because our upstairs neighbors had been loud. It seemed like an omen of doom.
Now, about a year later, we love this place. There is a lot to be grateful for. It’s sunny. It’s quiet 363 days out of the year. We look out over a park and can walk to the library. We have several boxes of salt in the cabinets. The heater is on the fritz again, but we’ll call the manager and have it fixed before New Year’s Eve for sure.
(P.S. In 2015 I wrote this.)