Reverb17: The Empress / Soul Food

(For the past seven years, I’ve used #Reverb10 prompts to give myself a question to answer every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. I’ve kept my favorite prompts, integrated them into my tarot practice, and created my own month-and- a-bit of questions. )

EMPRESS / Soul Food. What did you eat this year that you will never forget?

Oh, my. The food in Japan was amazing. We did not have a bad meal. The sushi bowl for breakfast in the Fish Market in Tokyo. The 12 course traditional meals on the hike. The square egg omelets on a stick. The little fish that glimmered ruby red. The tiny egg I cracked into my cold ramen on the train. Little mochi cakes that looked like flowers in Kyoto. The rice balls packed for us that we ate at the top of the hike in the freezing rain. The vegan ramen in Tokyo station we went back for again. The food we ate in the mall, craning our necks to see what everyone else was doing. No idea what it was – so good! Could have drunk the red sauce down like wine! Everything was new and delicious. I’ve never eaten with such abandon and lack of fear. And I felt great – my tummy was so happy! I could eat Japanese food exclusively for the rest of my life.

(P.S. Last time I wrote this.)

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Reverb17: The Emperor / Habit

(For the past seven years, I’ve used #Reverb10 prompts to give myself a question to answer every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. I’ve kept my favorite prompts, integrated them into my tarot practice, and created my own month-and- a-bit of questions. )

THE EMPEROR / Habit. What habit did you adopt this year that really made a positive impact on your life?

I tried to meditate for at least 10 minutes a day this year. I did a really good job for about 6 months. Then, life and moving and everything. When I did it I liked it. My base-line for stress was reset in some way. I was just calmer in every situation.

Let’s just take a moment and appreciate that I’m not beating myself up for only doing this part of the year. It’s a big change for me. Even last year I have regarded my failure to meditate every day for 10 minutes as a huge deal. How terrible! I’m such a flake! Can’t follow through on a resolution to save my life! But now I’m looking at it and thinking – I liked that. I learned so much. It’s great that I did as much as I did. How can I learn from this and use it to be successful the next time?

Let’s see … when I did it I woke up and before I got out of bed I set the meditation timer for 10 minutes. It was perfect. Now, I need to be up and out of bed immediately if I want to work out before work, so that’s not feasible. I need to find another place it fits in my day – perhaps at the end of the work-day as a nice transition? – to put it back in. This is a solvable problem – even more so because I’ve done well with it before.

(P.S. Last time I wrote this.)

Reverb17: High Priestess / Wisdom

(For the past seven years, I’ve used #Reverb10 prompts to give myself a question to answer every day of December. It’s a great way to reflect on the year and set goals for the future. I’ve kept my favorite prompts, integrated them into my tarot practice, and created my own month-and- a-bit of questions. )
HIGH PRIESTESS / Wisdom. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year?

I am the hero of this story. I can be the provider, the strong one. I can keep my own depression at bay while caring for a depressed person. I can decide, we are doing this, and it will be done. It’s sad to see that even I, raised by strong feminists, a women’s college graduate, all that fell even an inch into the quicksand of learned helplessness. And it’s good to have pulled myself out.

Interesting that the biggest, most profound things get the fewest words? I can go on and on about so many things – but this, this truth is too big to write about.

(P.S. Last time I wrote this.)